Stepping in Faith...

When I was a Junior at Tarleton State University, I knew that I wanted to do more than just get a degree in Communications. As I began to pray and ask God what direction he would have me go, all I could think about was becoming a teacher. I felt confident knowing that I had some sort of direction for my life after I graduated. Being that I was almost done with my junior year, I thought about getting an alternative certification so that I would graduate on time and move on from Tarleton. I loved that school and I am thankful to have gone there with such great people, in a town I love, to create a future for myself, but anything longer than 4 1/2 years (which it took me) would have been too long.

Then some great & exciting life events took place: I got engaged, graduated, moved to Keller, TX, began working at a preschool for Grapevine-Colleyville ISD, and got married. It all came fast, yet was wonderful. I was (and STILL am) a girl in love, ready to start my married life with my best friend, and getting certified to teach was put on the back burner for the time being.

Our first year of marriage was such a treasure. We made our apartment in Hurst a home. We learned more about each other. We shared many laughs and tears. We grew in our walk with the Lord. We grew as individuals. We learned responsibilities & life lessons. Too many memories to share. Yet in the first year, I'll be honest....I let fear tell me what I could and couldn't do. Rather than believing what God has for me could be tangible, I got so afraid of failure that I never pursued what I had been longing for. There were days that I was so down in the dumps because I felt like I was just wasting away my life. So back and forth I would allow my thoughts to become controlled by something so dumb..FEAR.

And now here I am, three months shy of our 2 year anniversary, and I am so done with being held back by fear!! It's still an issue in my life, but I am just praying & believing that I am making strides in the right direction! I KNOW that God has put the desire in me to become a teacher, regardless of the economy & lay offs & budget cuts. I am done with doubting and being so sensitive when someone brings up the subject with me. I am done with tearing up every time someone speaks into my life about getting certified (because I know that I've held up a guard in that area).

To be honest, I am terrified of failing at this. But like so many close to me have told me, "The least you can do is try. NOT trying is failing!"

So to those of you who have asked me, pushed me, encouraged me: THANK YOU!

I know this process won't be easy. I know I am going to have to bust my rear to accomplish this, but God is my strength and I am clinging to his word: "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you & not to harm you, to give you a future & a hope."- Jeremiah 29:11

My journey will start tomorrow: when I apply for the program to get an alternative certification.
Please keep me in your prayers!!!

-Blissful Becky